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Monday, January 26, 2009, 10:58 PM
Was having lots of thoughts last night before I could get myself into sleep. Was very tired, but still, the thoughts got me thinking.At work, everyone's backstabbing one another. For sure that I've seen that through. But if you don't gossip, you don't get on with life there. Gossiping seems to be the only way out. And definitely, when I step out of that place, there'll be people talking about me. I knew that. But yet, I shouldn't mind that, cause I'm also doing that.
It's Chinese New Year today. But yet, I don't feel anything. Those AngBaos of mine, didn't get me jumping anymore. Those New Year goodies didn't get me munching anymore. As requested, no steamboat at home this year, since obviously brother wouldn't be eating together, and sis and me would be working, taking turns to be absent. So no point right?
As always, I don't feel the bond of the family. My relatives. Didn't go for the reunion dinner on saturday as I was working. It was hilarious when I get to know what happened that night. Uncle almost fought with waiter(because he almost fell when waiter accidently kicked his chair), Big Aunt asked money back from cousin infront of the whole family. Hilarious isn't it? One big family, have such situations. And third Uncle still ain't really talking to small Uncle.
Went over yesterday after work. Was hiding in my Aunt's room when those relatives arrived. Simply because they annoys me. I find them irritating. As usual, cousin face black black. And why does it seems like no cousins is getting along with me in the family? And they only goes to my Sis. Let's just take it as age gap alright. So I was mixing around with the kids in the room. Trying to test them with some questions to tame them down. They got so excited when playing, till that face black black cousin came in to scold her girl. I was kind enough to try to teach them new skill of using their fingers to do multiplication. But it seems like, the Mum give me that face - unappreciative. Came home after that.
I went work as usual this morning. It was fucking boring there, I swear. Managed to pull through till 5 and headed home. Didn't go anywhere for visiting. I just so can't be bothered. Mum and Sis helped me collect Angbaos, not many, but still, I also don't care. I feel good not having to visit those aunties and uncles. So what if it's Chinese New Year, life's the same.
Afterall, what's that big Fuck about Chinese New Year? Spend bomb buying new clothes, yet I'm not wearing them, and I don't feel like it. Hopefully, I'm working on Chinese New Year for the rest of my life. I just don't enjoy Chinese New Year now. Nothing for me to look forward to, everythings's still the same. I don't believe in 'Huat lar' during CNY anyway. It seems like I don't follow those Chinese customs now. Whatever.
But one thing that is remarkable this year. Mum gave me $10 angbao. Rare chance.