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Wednesday, July 30, 2008, 3:37 PM
Since i have time, I'll blog.People who comes across my blog, please tag.
Gosh, look at my tagboard.
Tsk Tsk, it's dead!
This week is holy hell shity week.
I had IS on mon and Tues, which is practical.
Then Thurs and Fri again.
Tired. Today's IS, Hais.
Beef stew=mirepoix stew=vietnamnese pork chop
WTFH!
Hais, these few days ar,
had been chatting with yik kiat.
Call him spongy. (:
Both of us went onto a emotional roller coaster just now.
LOL~
he kept beating round the bush.
Told him i don't understand alr,
He still dun wan come straight to the point.
Fucker sia him.
But he really make me laugh.
Now and then.
LOLS~
Exams next week.
Sentosa this SAT!
YEAH!
Sunday, July 27, 2008, 4:10 PM
Since i've got the time, i'll blog.Went out today.
Firstly, went potong pasir for a visit.
Woke up late too.
Went to get chocolates for them.
They see me then they like so happy lars!
Chatted to boss, and some of the others.
Talked alot to amy. Interupted her work :S
Trained down to orchard.
Waited for damn long.
So went to isetan marketplace to see if they sell pronto.
Shit them, I can't find!
After they come, we went to far east.
To get my blazar done.
Got it at $220.
Initially 250..
Tailor made it.
Then bring TingTing and Kamz go eat the turkish Ice-Cream.
They got fooled.
And both were enjoying the fun.
LOLS!
After that went to makan indo food.
Ayam Penyet. AYAM PLANET! LOLS~
The chilli super damn nice can.
But it's damn spicy.
I ate till i was tearing.
And now, Worms in the tummy.
They went taka, G2000.
Then went to Borders.
Then we met sharul outside wheelock.
Then we go starbucks chill.
Till 11+ then go home(left me and li ting only)
Trained home.
Reached home 12.10.
Bathed, now using comp(:
Going back to Potong Pasir again later in the afternoon.
Go take my bag...
YEAH! finally.
Saturday, July 26, 2008, 11:57 AM
I realised i haven't been blogging for almost a week.Alrights, so i'll take this chance to update a little on my blog.
So many things had happened in this 3 weeks of sch life.
The good and bad.
Which do u wish to hear first? Bad or Good?
Alrights, i'll say the unhappy ones first.
BAD
There's misunderstandings between us girls.
But it had been cleared.
And the reason behind this stupid misunderstanding is,
guy.
I had been quite emo for this week.
I don't feel good.
People can't take jokes. As in me repeating them.
People find me annoying, though they don't say it by the mouth,
I sense it through the words they say and their actions shows.
I find it hard to get along with people.
I don't know, problem lies with me.
I don't know where is my problems, u see.
I don't feel the trust with these people.
I don't have the sense of security.
Seriously, I miss Jiayi and co.
Though we quarrel, but at least i know they'll be there.
But these people, once got problem, they siam 1st.
And what the hell, people end up making fun of me, I'm ok with it.
And then, they gets overboard, they 'bully' me.
make me do things.
Nevermind, I'll just do it.
Cooking's my passion.
I'll do it good.
GOOD
Lesson is quite fun, the things i learn is quite fun too.
I got nothing much to say already.
Anyway, I don't think people think highly of me though.
But people who get think highly of, they get so proud of it.
Anyways, I'll just put my whole heart into this course.
I make sure i do it well.
And i make sure i prove it with my capabilties.
Yar, and this is my life now.
Unhappy with people, but still keng to go out with them.
Relationship side, don't wish to comment on anything though.
I can't be bothered.
I just want to concentrate on my course.
Monday, July 21, 2008, 2:40 PM
Here to blog before i go to bed.It's 11.38 now.
I just finished doing some editing to soma's ppt.
It's fucking rubbish lor.
I talked to him just now, on msn.
Just a little, really a little.
Can't talk to him much.
'cos he was at derrick place.
Then if i were to ask things, others would also have known.
So it wasn't very nice.
Asked li ting to msg him,
To see how is he doing in his relationship part.
'cos he said he was facing problem.
Rather general answer he gave.
'ok lor, will take care of everything.'
Don't know what he meant by that anyways.
Li ting thinks that they're over.
I dun share the same thought as her.
The result will be out tomorrow anyway.
Will see if he still have his ring on.
I wish, they're gameover.
Sigh, though i most likely won't end up with him.
Same as that girl, we just met.
But yar, at least single rite.
Who knows.
But yea, nobody noes anything until tomorrow.
Sigh.
Sunday, July 20, 2008, 11:26 AM
Fucking moody this 2 days.Li Ting told me one 'good' news
He said that he's confuse about his status.
He doesn't even know if he's considered attached or single.
Sigh.
Just because that girl is giving him a cold shoulder.
But as what kamz said.
Cold shoulder doesn't mean that they'll break up.
Which means, not definitately i stand a chance.
Sigh.
Why on earth did the eye contacts started?!
well, kamz also said, he does that to everyone.
And she also said that he looks at me doesn't mean he like me.
GOSH!
there's so much things that i can't explain y.
I can't explain.
I can't show.
AARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH!
I DUNNO LAR.
FUCK!
Saturday, July 19, 2008, 11:40 AM
I'm currently not in very good mood now.Found out that he's actually attached.
With this malay girl in the B class.
Sian.
Probably all the eye-contact was wrong since day one.
I don't know.
I don't know y i'm sad either.
When i shouldn't be.
I don't even know him in the 1st place.
I don't know y i am sad for that.
He claims that they are just frens.
But why, issit that there's a ring, with her name on.
I want to cry out.
I want to let it out.
But there isn't any tears coming out.
Perhaps, it was a wrong since day one.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008, 11:22 AM
Alrights, back here blogging again.Finally i've got time to blog or even check out my tag.
Was rushing project last night.
Stupid mr teow, keep saying understand not.
In 5 mins he can say a billion times of 'understand not'
LOLS~
then he tell us must prepare project at like 6pm yesterday.
Then this morning 8.30 was his lesson alr.
WTF.
and i slept at 1am last night.
dumbo mama, pasted new timing for her, 5am.
She still woke me up at 4.30.
So i only had abt 4 hrs of slp.
I still love school though.
Ohh! let me answer to simone's question.
I chng heart, but not to haojie, he's attach btw.
It's DK.
Talked to him a little during the demo kitchen time.
And fucking teacher, we all don't understand wad she talking.
Then i moved to the back, cos i sian infront.
Kamz talk to her lovely one.
Then they behind laugh laugh, i sian then i go to the back.
Then stupid Johnathon and co.
They passed me this Kacang Puteh thingy.
Small small de.
Then they tell me is DK gimme derhs.
They told me to open and eat.
Then i open liao i pass to rhica they all.
LOLS~
not use to this type of snacks(:
Then DK behind shout lor.
'wha lau sabo me. Fuck sia'
I dunno wad it means lar.
maybe is he paiseh?
Maybe is really sabo?
Maybe is they're just making fun of me?
But normally this group of people very quiet de lehs.
They dun disturb other girls de lehs.
But i wish that they did that is becos he shy:P
HAHAHA~
But where got people will like me sia.
hehe.
But yea, got a crush on him le.
I suppose so. I get so happy when i think about the smile on his face.
And cute cute mature mature de him.
LOLS~
sry ar, abit disguisting.
LOL
Monday, July 14, 2008, 3:25 AM
It had been quite sometime since i last blogged.Alrights, today is sun.
Finally i've got no work.
Rested at home for this 2 days.
I'm gonna do some reading up later.
I said that ytrday.
But end up sleeping like a pig.
Alrights, i went shopping yesterday evening.
Bought all my things.
I bought a new watch.
ODM derhs.
the white one with a gold frame.
Love it to bits.
Bought my giordano black polo tee.
Bought 2 of them,
so that when i have IS as the last period i can wear home.
Bought 3 new world order tee.
So that when i go out, i have clothes to wear.
Those i have at home old already.
Bought my dumbells.
Im training up my arm muscles.
Stupid pots and saute pans so heavy.
The guys also say heavy.
Oh ya, lets rewind back to friday.
I had my IS.
We cooked the 3 soups.
It's utterly damn disguisting i can say.
Then, pots and pans were so damn heavy.
What's best, no guys help.
And when cleaning up the kitchen.
Everyone used the sink.
But no one bothers to help to clean it.
Damn it.
I clean the whole sink by myself.
Fucking idiot guys i can say.
All use use use, then so many of them clean one sink.
Then i clean one sink by myself.
Fuck u, guys.
The only thing i was surprised and happy about was.
When i wash until i dying alr.
Jason came, ask if i nid help.
I actually thought of cleaning all by myself.
Then he want help i say ok lor.
He thought the 2 soup bowl is mine, he washed.
Then i tell him is that stupid starfish derhs,
He put back in.
He help me wash and dry.
Nice guy man.
And when the sink was choke.
No one bother to go tell the mentor.
I ask that stupid ungentlement guy next to me.
He touch touch also cant find the filter.
I ask him how.
He tell me say go tell teacher.
I waited for him to go tell sia.
But end up lehs, he pack his things, and stood there.
WTH.
I walk go tell teacher.
Then after that, also no one help me clean the sink.
And guess who flooded the sink.
Is the stupid starfish.
GGGRRRR.
Alrights, i got to know haojie.
He's quite fun larhs actually.
Talked to him on msn.
Just that i think i've got a little of languange barrer with these people.
Haojie eng isnt good.
So when on msn, wad i say he dun understand.
Wad he tries to put across, i don't get it.
Ting ting and rhica, same thing.
Haojie abit scary though.
HAHAS!
He was telling me how ppl call him and his nicknames.
Is those really like close people call lar, so i dun do that.
I call him jie jie(sister).
LOLS!
then when i tell him i going slp liao, at 1+.
He send me offline msg which i saw ytrday afternoon.
He say 'ok, goodnite.' & 'sweet dreams girl'
Then he send me e-mail 'go slp bah'
Alamak, dunno y he say so many times sieh.
And he keep calling me 'girl'.
Feels comfy talking to him lar.
As though i talking to clarence few years back.
When i tell him the xiao tian tian jokes, he will go
'u're damn funny girl'
LOLS!
He said this damn many times.
Ok, i typed alot alot.
Shall update when i'm free.
ANW, ILOVETINGTING(:
Friday, July 11, 2008, 12:45 PM
Finally that im blogging huh.Back from school at 7+.
Had lunch before i came back.
I really can't stand her siah.
I laugh my head off her.
I laugh everytime she speaks.
And thing thing and rhica dun understand her luhs.
I don't know since when, she became the leader of the group.
:/
This week class is really pretty fun.
I seriously have that smile on my face.
Though i come home face very black, becos i v tired.
But i just told mama just now.
I really really enjoy what i'm actually studying right now.
Although, it's just the beginning.
I'm willing to work hard.
Talking about y i end up at shatec.
I used to see my mama cook.
Then when im young i say i wanna to be a chef.
It's my dream.
I feel in love with cooking.
But i dun cook as much luhs, just home cook food.
Then now, when u ask me, y i wanna be a chef, y i love cooking.
My answer to u will be idk.
It's my dream of becoming a chef.
And i made it to my stand.
So, if now, u ask me, all i can say it's becos i have a dream.
And people!!
My class got alot of guys.
Only 7 girls.
But there are some cute and handsome guys in my class though..
I will not name names.
But got these 2 guys.
I find them very 'smoothing' to my eyes.
One is look like a actor de. He's abit noisy, but i find him pretty 'cute'.
I dunno how to explain.
The other one is kam also like derhs.
He attracted my attention starting from the orientation.
He gimme the mature and understanding looks.
He gimme that type of feeling.
And he looks into ur eyes when he talks to u,
or walk pass u.
He's really the first guy that gimme such impression.
But sad thing, he smokes.
And i don't like people smoke.
Oh ya, i said that i'll help nas to quit smoking.
Even though she had been smoking for like 9 years.
I dun give a damn, she needs to quit.
And i'll make her quit.
I feels so desperate now.
Feeling so desperate to find someone who appreciates me.
Feeling so desperate to know how LOVE taste like.
Sigh.
I'm despo again...
Tuesday, July 8, 2008, 12:00 PM
I've not been blogging for sometime already.Hence, this explains the dead tagboard.
Yesterday, last day at work.
Finally i've unloaded the largest burden.
Got to BB very early today.
Much earlier than expected.
School can say fun or sian.
Almost ice-breaking for all lessons.
Alrights, I'm going to sleep le.
I've not been slpin for 17hrs.
Anw, tml 8am lesson had been cancelled.
So, lesson is like at 10:)
Saturday, July 5, 2008, 5:28 AM
Now currently at potong pasir mac.Waiting for my 'FRIEND'
I'm meeting her at 3.
Alrights, currently the atmosphere here is annoying.
By this stupid group of st andrews student.
And UH HUH! they just left.
LOLS~
Rewind back to yesterday.
Went to payar lebar area for lunch.
Near sis office.
Had dim sum.
And stupidly unhappy with them.
Becos they don't pour tea for us.
Most of the time i do it myself.
And best of all.
Teapot mouth is cracked, hence there's spillage.
Went joo seng warehouse.
Bought my FBT shorts.
But unfortunately, wasnt the one i like.
Sis bought a sleeveless, I bought a tee.
And then they gave this stupidly ugly big bag.
And we were making our way to vivo.
We zoomed into the map when we reached there.
Checked out the canon printer.
They don't sell it at the show house.
Stupid.
Then when we passed by the cinema,
I was like ehs, damn long didnt watch movie lehs.
Dragged my sis to buy tickets.
Went to buy my sch bag at zinc.
Walked in me and sis fell for the same bag.
Got the purple one.
It's out with me today.
Found out that harbourfront got that doctor fish!!!!
I wan go. It's only $10 for 10 mins.
LOLS~
Went into movie.
10 promises with my dog.
I cried damn badly.
With eyes one big one small walking out of the theatre.
After movies went to get the printer.
Stupid irritating BEST DENKI at vivo.
I don't like the service there.
For twice i went shopping with purpose there.
No service.
Please, people who does service and are promoter,
please don't judge who is ur potential buyer just by his or her dressing.
It was a Q&A session with that promoter.
We asked, he answered.
He's not even telling us anything.
Not providing any information at all.
Sian.
Give free give also nv say, just pass to us.
On call CAB home.
Came for lunch with the 12noon group people.
I wanted to treat.
But then nansi didn't allow.
She paid again.
Yea, and like wad i told mone.
I don't like her.
When u joke with someone, joke with a limit.
And i feel bad that nansi is always paying.
Judy paid last wk.
Sigh, i come back have lunch with u guys is not for u guys to pay for me lehs.
Sigh. like wad i say, I don't know how to tell u all how i feel.
I don't feel like coming back for lunch le lehs...
HAIS~
you drink a bottle, i drink two.
you ate 2, i ate 4.
you feel the pain, i am twice as pain.
however much pain u felt, i gets it doubled up.
So when u're happy, i'll be happy.
Can you be happy please.
Thursday, July 3, 2008, 4:01 PM
Back here to blog.I'm pretty fine now.
I've finally quit.
I've learn to be self-fish.
Everyone got to learn to love themselves first.
& I'm going shopping tomorrow!!!
& I'm most likely going to get a crumpler backpack.
& I'm going FBT warehouse.
& I'm going for dim sum buffet in the afternoon.
&&&&&I'll enjoy myself!!!
Going to have dinner with fay and co. on fri.
Cya people.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008, 2:48 PM
Okay.Warning: Pamela's gonna bring all her emotions in here.
I want BANG BANG BANG my blog now.
Sorry to my readers in advance.
Got to know about the post of juniors.
And the damn damn they, messaged only jiayi.
None of us, knew anything.
DAMN DAMN DAMN
I am not going for the installation, unless im invited.
Though i know deep down in my heart, I'm dying to be invited.
No one told us anything.
Dropped by a blog,tagged.
shall not name names.
She feels as though she's stress up.
Yes this point of time it is. No doubt.
I told her if she needs our help, seniors are always there.
Even asked her is she has our number.
She ok and yes respectively.
Damn it.
Have our numbers, don't even bother to msg us anything.
What the HELL!
Damn it man!
And i heard about all the post from shirley just now.
Thou i always say i don't want care,
but sry, ban bu dao.
AND AGAIN.
DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT
Dumb-ess, idiotic, moronic, unrespected(by me) person got that stupid dumbass post.
DUMBASS!
AND YES!
I'm waiting for the invitation to interact installation.
IF they ever invite me,
Tell u, no matter how busy, i would still squeeze time to go down.
Damn HELL!
And there's too much things in my mind.
Till i only see blank.
I really would want to love myself before i can love others.
Seriously.
Besides, i don't think i'll be up to standard if i carries on.
And seriously, I just wanna love myself 1st.
SIGH!
I feels pressurized though.
By sis, by mum, by anyone and everyone out there.
Each and everyone claims that they ain't pushing me.
But don't they know their actions shows anything and everything?!
DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
9:40 AM
alrights~Short post for now.
I'm going to bathe then go out again.
Went to get my hair back to black.
And yucks, It's black again.
Went to have lunch with mone & amy.
Fri going back again.
This time round is the 12noon group derhs.
Damn damn damn.
My hair is black.
RAWRS!
I'm going hougang to meet shirley for dinner(:
Tuesday, July 1, 2008, 2:32 PM
Here to blog.Woke up early in the morning because of some nuisance neighbour.
Talked so loudly.
Inconsiderate freaks!
Mum drove me to amk,
Went to return library books.
Then, helped her buy earpiece.
Hers is spoilt again.
Went makan at 339.
The teh-o there is so nice~
Went shop & save.
Damn it sia.
Shop & save isn't good.
Whole store so big, isn't a single can of corn kernels.
Then went to ask the lady,
She told me, 'oh change into packet de alr'
Wth.
Please lor, i know the product.
Besides, i don't think that's the only brand they have in house.
I wan the ayam brand derhs.
GRRRRR~
Then best of all.
Bought morzellera cheese.
Then, there derhs not nice.
Like melted melted derhs.
All stick together one chunk one chunk der.
Sigh.
Displeasure shopping at shop and save.
Came home, experimented some food.
Quite nice though.
4 people ate them this time.
Jiayi, Chuxuan, Jiayi's mum & sis.
Sis said is nice, but there's room for improvement.
But i don't know how to improve it sia.
How to make it taste nicer.
Didn't take photo of it,
I shall next time.
Yes, next time. -.-
Went to jiayi's grandpa's wake.
Auntie was pretty surprised though.
She asked how we know about it.
HAHAS~
Gambled a little there.
I don't know when i suppose to pay when i'm winner though.
I don't gamble usually.
I just play play nia.
Anw, i thinking of quitting alr.
I doubt i can handle.
I believe my time table is worst then any other poly student.
Who have to wake up 5.30 everyday?
Who have to travel 1hr 15 mins to school?
Who have lessons 8.30 to 7.30, mon-fri?
Alrights, this is my life soon.
Very very soon.
But i swear,
I'll study very hard.
I don't want to waste the chance again.
I'm feeling empty inside.