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Thursday, November 27, 2008, 10:11 PM
AH ha! It was dumb of me to be angry last night.Because, it's not the cable not working.
Is I don't know how to operate. =X
Malu Malu.
Alrights, I'm using wireless@sg which seriously piss me off.
I can't seems to download any game of my choice.
Because it's a public wireless connection.
And I'm clearing her stupid bills.
Up to $700+.
I can't leave her to die.
I've got to go on recession.
Which sounds damn sad to me can.
Still have the thought of going out over the weekend to spend.
Then end up lehs, cannot spend, need save up.
Nevermind, don't need spend so much also can have fun.
hehe.
I'm excited about my weekend.
It's time to enjoy!
After enjoy need chiong my Semester 1 Final Examination already((:
Wednesday, November 26, 2008, 11:52 PM
Alright, all I can say is, my blog is hell rotting.And there's no other better words to describe my blog other than rotten.
Well, I've gotten my PSP slim.
Sis got it for me already.
But what seriously pissed me off is, the cable cannot function.
Fuck. And that's when I cnt transfer the game I've been looking forward to.
What the hell.
Ok lar, I going emo emo alr.
Yes, emo of the cable.
LOL.
Bye.
Saturday, November 22, 2008, 11:23 PM
I've sort of have enough of my nonsense.Getting pissed off so easily.
When we're just friends, and not best friends or whatever. But JUST normal friend.
And I gets pissed off easily with little things he said?
It's too over.
Who am I to be angry, who am I to be pissed.
He isn't my guy afterall.
So I shouldn't be angry.
And probably he'll know.
Is most likely. 99.9%
Because I angry I don't bother to initiate a chat.
But really, who am I.
couldn't sleep last night.
These were on my mind.
casw, I'm exhausted.
And I know it's time to let go.
Friday, November 21, 2008, 11:55 AM
Refer to my LJWednesday, November 19, 2008, 11:12 AM
Haven't been blogging here for sometime.Shall blog here on sensitive issues, as I don't want my LJ to be searched.
Alright, remember my post about bbq at LJ? Refer if you need.
They mentioned about supernatural stuff that night. And I don't know to believe them or not. Probably what I can say is, I respect what they said, but in disbelieve yet follows their instructions as not to be rude. What is abit weird was, even a drunkard, could be said to be posessed with supernatural stuff. And saying that her strength and weight is double than an usual person. Weird uh? Things are so simple.
One got drunk, and of cause that is not her usual self. And why she weighs so heavy, because she totally no strength to control her body already. Hence, it's common that she is totally relax, therefore she weighs heavier than normal.
They saw supernatural sister. We had experience with it. So? Why make things such big hu ha that she's in her body and etc? And supernatural sister tries to be funny. Whatever it is. In my opinions, they've been naughty, hence these sisters would wants to disturb them. Next, they would want attention, since this is something new to others, whereby they don't see her.
Stop the nonsense. Stories ain't complete. There are holes in your stories.
And I think I'm falling sick. Felt flam at the throat, feeling so uncomfortable. And why the hell must it be wednesday? Whenever I feel like going to the doctor in the afternoon after class, doctor's close. Sigh.
I should be able to get my PSP by next week. HIP HIP HURRAY!
Sunday, November 16, 2008, 11:07 AM
Alrights, back from the outing.Shall post about it on Livejournal, so everyone can read.
People invited to my blog can just find my LJ link at the side bar.
Saturday, November 15, 2008, 2:06 PM
I'll be away till tomorrow, probably afternoon...Anything contact me on my hp. Thanks(:
I haven't chatted with him today.
Sigh.
Friday, November 14, 2008, 10:39 PM
Today is another Freak Friday.Let the chat do the talking(:
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
Y ISN'T HE ONLINE TODAY?!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
when he was last wk
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
sigh
simone
confinement!!!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
again??
simone
ya last week he told me
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
as in this wkend he not booking out again?
simone
nope
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
fuck
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
sian1/2
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
y keep having confinement?
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
he nvr tell me, so i didnt noe
simone
starting got alot of outfield one lor
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
damn
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
i hate ns
simone
...
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
damn scared sia
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
if he like that
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
keep kena confinement
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
then we v long nv chat
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
then ltr break contact how?
simone
could you not think any old how please
simone
you're always at your most emotional during this time
simone
OMG
simone
HE IS ONLINE
simone
I THOUGHT HE CONFINEMTN
simone
WTH?!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
he come alr!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
HAHAHA
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
see
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
6th sense came again
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
realised that?!
simone
IDIOT
simone
OK LA
simone
I DAMN FREAKED OUT NOW LA
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
hahahaha
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
somemore for 2 wks
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
everytime i talk abt him
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
then he appear
simone
FREAKY FRIDAY LA
simone
KNN
simone
FOREVER FREAKY FRIDAY
simone
I'M QUITE FREAKED OUT LOR
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
LOL
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
IT'S DAMN FUN
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
u should see me just now
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
i just now playing with mum
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
then sian sian de, then when i saw ur msg
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
his pop up
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
i laugh at the laptop
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
HAHAHAHAHHA
simone
..............................................................
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
LOL
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
it's again coincidents
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
hahaha
simone
ARGH
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
y?!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
are u like stun infront of ur vaio?
simone
ya la!!
simone
i was typing halfway then wah lau
simone
THE GODDESS NAME APPEAR
simone
IM LIKE
simone
BUSHI CONFINEMENT MEH?!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
LOL!
Pamela; You stab me, I stab you. No need get sack, die together.
it's damn funny
**********************THE END**************************
If there is a need for refreshment, please look back to my post last friday, 7th november 2008.
Could someone explain to me what is all these about please? I didn't planned it, it was a total pure coincidents. But where got on earth coincidents until like that?! It was truthfully unplanned, unknown. What's happening? Yes, after this time, I'm quite freaked out already. Though it may be fun, but somehow it gets scary.
*FREAKED OUT*
Thursday, November 13, 2008, 8:23 PM
Disclaimer: Please do not get offended by the follow contents, as seriously it's just how I feel. And I'm not against them, but I just don't like what they've done to our society in Singapore. So people, please understand that this post is purely words from my heart, and there isn't any hard feelings. Please get this right, it's just my thoughts, anything typed in this post, shall be kept within this blog only. I know who can view my blog.From the bottom of my heart, I seriously dislike Chinese Nationals. First thing first, what made me carry such heavy feelings on them, is that how much the commercial businessman trusted their country and decided to use their lands and gotten the cheap ingredients from China. In the end, food that are product of China had ended up taking lives. For instance, the milk incident. Milk had killed a large numbers of babies, in their country itself. Then products made with milk from China, are affected too. And people like me, lost trust with China products, I don't wish to die at such early age. Numerous products had been affected, and our government is encourage us not to discriminate China. Is it purely China at fault? Or the world is to blame?
And I believe, the first symptoms of the economic downfall. Look, this is how I link them up. Babies died because of melamine, people stop buying China products, and I believe majority of the market products are made in China. So, food products cannot be eaten neither those being manufactured can be sold, they start throwing them away, causing food wastage. And since food comes from food ingredients comes from the soil of our earth, sowed by farmers, farmers loses their job, since they don't need ingredients anymore, and no one buys things from China now. See the pattern now?
I'm not trying to tell my readers not to buy China products or say things like buy at your own risk. It depends fulling on how much trust you have in the company and the food and products that are made there, China. If let's say you could trust, why not?
Secondly, I think that Chinese Nationals who comes to Singapore to make a living, should respect the culture here. In Singapore, well-educated people(most of us), would speak softly in public places such as the bus or the mrt. And please, can't they dress more appoporiately? As in more decent lar.
And incident I met at AMKhub Basement toilet next to Fairprice Extra. The toilet cleaners where Chinese Nationals. Basically, there's the turns before you could enter the female toilet, it should be made for safety reasons right? However, when I was there, the male toilet cleaner, was standing at the second turn. Which means directly outside the female cubicles. Can you see the picture now? And the next question is, what is he doing there? He was chit chatting with the female cleaner.
Now, get what I mean by they should respect our culture here. Probably in China, cubicles for mens and womens are open concept and next to each other, like seen on the television. But what makes them think that Singapore is the same? We're not. The standard of living in Singapore had greatly increase, for what I can say. Not that I'm comparing saying that their standard of living is very low, but they should adapt to our culture here.
What I'm going to mention next is quite politics, so chill, I mean no harm.
Isn't our government encouraging the elderly to continue working after retirement? And according to the aging population in Singapore, most of the retiring personels are not very educated. And what can these people do besides washing the toilet, washing the plates and serving kopi at the kopitiam?And obviously, many Chinese Nationals are coming Singapore to earn a living, and because of the economic they have there, they're coming here. Most of them are from country-side from what I believe. And they're education system ain't as good as Singapore. So, they came Singapore, get those job that youngster wouldn't want to do. Singaporean youngsters would want a high pay job, because of the qualifications that we qualify.
And these people have gotten the lower pay job, with no qualifications needed.
So how to expect retiring personel to return back into workforce?
I'm not against them, however, these is just what is reflecting to me. It's ironical, definately. They've taken our jobs, even education place, when Singapore, is just a stepping stone for them. There seems to be more Chinese Nationals in Singapore than Singaporeans. I'm wondering, if our society sees what I'm seeing in my Nation now. And, I'm glad that I'm a Singaporean.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008, 9:38 PM
Nothing much today.Wake up, makan, bathed then went school.
WSQ lesson as usual boring.
Then took back FCC result.
Got 40/50, but I'm unhappy with it.
Partially was because 10 true or false question wasn't done by me.
2nd, there are people who passed with my answers.
3rd, I'm unhappy that I lost to Ria by 1 mark, and she's the top 3.
I can give her the guy, but not with results.
Yes it does matter to me of winning or losing.
Because, I just don't want to lose to these people.
Though my practical may not be as good as hers, but I'll work hard, and work on my acedemic.
Went Japan Village with sis for dinner.
Went jalan jalan, then trained to amk and cabbed home.
Planning to do Egg Tarts tomorrow, Simone maybe coming over to learn.
Wanying, I teach you next time(:
It depends if mone is coming over.
But I'll still bake regardless of rain or shine.
HAHA!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008, 8:33 PM
Reached home about 3+.Use comp, then slack.
Then I went to that makebabies website on simone's blog.
Just for fun, I took my picture and clarence's picture,
did the make babies thingy.
It was fucking hilarious.
I myself was laughing out loud!
The kids look kinda of indian
(if i set it auto lar, cos it says 90% accurate mar. FAKE ONE!)
Then I change it to caucasion(is this how u spell?) WHATEVER, ang mo.
Then the girl very cute already. HAHA.
CHUBBY FACE. LOLS~
Then cooked dinner for mum and myself.
Didn't know what to cook with the french beans i bought in the afternoon.
Anyhow whack.
Slice onion and cook it with the french bean. LOL.
1st time slice onion until i cry sia.
That's all for today(:
Tomorrow school afternoon...=D
Monday, November 10, 2008, 10:14 PM
Or probably I should put in the way,she's not in good mood, so me asking too much question,
had irritated her?
I'll leave her alone.
Unless she comes and disturb me again.
I wish things goes my way.
好人有好报。
CHEERS!
9:19 PM
Today went school for nothing.Classes was cancelled.
Then after that went pasir ris meet wanying.
Went K with her. Today no stamina.
Came back and had dinner with family.
Just came home not long ago.
Served the net a little, saw on friendster.
Talked to kamz. Omg, she's playing games with me.
Let her be. She posted a bulletin on friendster.
Talking about girls outing and bbq, literately, my name wasn't there.
Whatever it is, perhaps she still can't accept me.
Then when I talk to her on msn, asking her the bbq is on sat and not fri,
her attitude of talking sucks.
HECK SIA!
COMMON, PLAY WITH ME MORE!
I LOVE HER GAME MAN!
Since she love playing with me so much, I'll play the game.
She played with me too many times, until I just wanna join in and play.
I know, she love her haters, because they complete her.
WHAHA, I DON'T HATE HER.
I LOVE HER AND HER GAME.
TRUE HEARTS WON'T DIE, FAKERS DIE 1ST(:
COME ON, KAMZ.
PLAY THE GAME.
Sunday, November 9, 2008, 2:01 PM
I'm too bored, and so, to cure our boredom, I'm blogging.hmm, from edward's tags, realised that whatever I posted up, he had been through.
I think it's pretty common.
Because, since we're of the same age, we're going through the same path of life.
So, nothing much to be surprised about.
I just tried to make egg tart using the crust for the quiche yesterday.
Due to the over sweetness of the crust, I decided to reduce the sweetness of the egg.
End up lehs, mum and sis say the egg tasteless.
Maybe I can work hard on my egg tarts, then I make Pamela's special egg tart.
HAHAA!
Sigh. Eng Yong - dear, is back in action with me again. It feels pretty bad, when she always come to me only when she sad, have prob with bf. Though I know it's good that when friends have trouble you are there to lend a listening ear. But it simply make me feel as though I'm just a spare tyre. Whatever. Yesterday, she had prob again, told me that she cut herself, anytime jump down the building. I'm there Whatever. I feel so relax over these matters now. Because life is theirs, do whatever they want then. I can't be bothered to go talk senses to them. Probably 1 or 2 will do. These people crazy lar, over relationship, want end life. They die also not the other party responsible, they are the one who is responsible.
Aiya, whatever.
Mum's cooking curry chicken for me. YEAH!
going out for project later. SIAN!
What's happening ar? Lately I'm so bored. Though got projects, but I'm still bored lehs. Is what? Too managable? or have I learned how to manage stress, that it's managable.
Whatever it is, I'm too bored, and needs entertainment.
WHERE DID YOU GO?! NEVER COME ONLINE TODAY!
& the time i get to chat with you, is so little.
Omg. After i typed the last sentence above, he came online.
It's fucking freaky now.
12:10 AM
Oh!did I mentioned that I got 3.13 for my gpa for sem 1 part 1?
erm, ok. I don't think i did. The fullest is 4.
I say now, ok? And I'm considered happy for the results, but I'm aiming higher.
I've got 3.13 for my GPA!
HIPP HIPP HURRAY!
Saturday, November 8, 2008, 11:22 PM
I'm seriously rotting, and rotten.Whole day doing nothing but rot.
Wake up early in the morning, rot.
Then go amk, had suki sushi with mum. Great Saving! only $30+.
Then went to buy ingredients for dinner.
Random thought of doing quiche for mum to try.
Reached home, rot again. Then cook. Eat. Now rotting again.
Tomorrow needa go do project in the evening, which is bloody fucking irritating.
Need to travel all the way to East Coast Park.
And damn, I've got to do it, because it's a group project, I'm left with no choice.
Had a chat with him just now.
The chat just dangles here and there.
As usual, he talked about what he had done for past 2 days.
And asks about me.
ETC, ETC. don't need elaborate lar hor.
During my period of rotting today.
I did blog hopping. And seriously blog hopping.
Unexpectedly, did I expect, found out that there's so many young mummies in singapore.
And these girls can be as young as 15.
It took me awhile to accept the fact though.
And while i saw someone who wrote in their blog, 'being a young mummy isn't a crime.'
I came to realise, they're not at fault.
I rather they be a young mum, or single mum rather than aborting the baby.
Afterall, it's a life growing within the tummy.
They make it sound so wonderful to be in motherhood.
That I wish to enter it too. BUT! I don't want to go into it so early.
I want to enjoy a longer 二人世界.
Aiyo, don't wanna talk about it already lar.
Don't even have a partner, how to 二人世界?!
LOL!
It feels really rather bad:
1. When you wish to care for the person, yet you can't show much.
2. When you wish to tell him how much misses you have for him, you can't say it out loud.
3. Wishes to counsult him of your troubles, yet you can't, because what troubles you is him.
Sigh.
He doesn't seems to know until.
He seems to be blur like shit!
what a boy.
Friday, November 7, 2008, 10:42 PM
Today is a damn damn tired day.Had IS in the morning, then lesson at 3pm.
Couldn't help it, but slept in class, infront of teacher.
Miss Lin came to me.
Told me that she thinks that I'm the strongest amongst the few girls in FCC.
So ask me to coach them if they need help.
I said ok.
But these group of people quite challenging.
Teach already, they also don't understand.
They are those when doing maths, they just want to get the answer.
But they don't understand the purpose of the steps.
And they never try to understand.
And this night, 7th November 2008, is a weird night.
There's a few coincidental things that happened, that was damn freaky.
When I was heading back home just now on 74.
All the way from ngee ann poly to home, I was thinking of him, missing him etc.
Then when I alighted the bus. I recieved a msg.
From Simone, saying that he is online.
Then, when I came online, initially appeared offline, cos I want to change my nick 1st.
Then appear online.
I purposely don't want to greet him 1st, so i greeted simone with a hello.
Then when I typed hello and pressed the enter button.
There's a Window Live Pop-up, he, said hello.
At the same time as me saying hello to Simone.
Exactly the same.
And he remebered my birthday wrongly.
Quite sad though.
Then when I calmed myself down already, ready to chat with him again.
He said ttyl, he gtg, work.
And also said that always wrong timing.
Don't know what does all this means sia.
Means he want continue to chat, but wrong time?
OR too bad, 'u' came at the wrong time, and 'i' gtg.
Don't know him lar.
Is either I'm thinking too much, or really this few wkends when he talk to me he is different.
Anw, SERENE:
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!
sorry, I couldn't make it for a gift for you:(
Paiseh..
Thursday, November 6, 2008, 5:04 PM
I'm addicted to this song now.There will be no ordinary days for you
If there is someone who cares like i do
You have no reason to be sad anymore
I'm always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you
You don't have to search no more
Cause i am someone who will love you for sure so..
(CHORUS)
If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place..
You can watch sad movies in a diffirent light
So i`ll be there beside you
Hugging you oh so tight(oh so tight)
Your hands will never feel so cold and empty again
Coz i will keep on holding on and won't let go(never let you go)
You don't have to search no more
Cause i am someone who will love you for sure so..
(CHORUS)
If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place..
Feel so good when you're around
One smile from you(one smile from you)
Be mine,this feel so right..so..
(CHORUS)
If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place..
Tuesday, November 4, 2008, 7:28 PM
为什么爱上你是那么容易的一件事， 但事想要放弃却那么难？你到地对我的心作了什么，让我那么喜欢你。
我本来说要放弃， 说的到简单，但我却办不到。
反而，这期间，我跟想你，跟想爱你，跟想拥有你。
不知不觉得开始很在乎你的想法。
你也是第一个让我为了小事而生气。从星期六开始，我不停的在想，你到地发生了什么事，不回音我的简讯。你让我只道在意和关心一个人是那么的辛苦。
Monday, November 3, 2008, 8:08 PM
Nothing much happened today.Went school as usual.
And no wonder I felt feverish last night.
Because, yesterday I was in the rain for a short period of time.
Why am I so weak?
Sigh.
I've got no confidence for tomorrow at all.
And nas calls me boss, because she said she follows my instructions.
Why put things this way sia? Is like, she isn't planning the time, as in what time do what. She is those type de, she know what she want do, but never control her timing... That's what I've observed lar... Then end up when I tell her my plans, like 1st 1/2hr to 1hr we do mise en place, then ltr do the frying of the rice. Then asked her she want to fry batch by batch or at 1 go? then she says up to me. She follows my instructions. Sigh. Why she think this way, was I ordering her too much?
But don't care how she think lar, at least I've got an idea of what time do what, then at least tml we wont mess up everything.
Hope everything will go well tomorrow.
Sunday, November 2, 2008, 11:56 PM
I shouldn't be feeling sad over you.At least, it's a good thing that you hadn't took my heart, and break it in to pieces, then return it to me.
Thank god, I never fell for the wrong person=)
I don't know what the hell I'm saying, but this is what's in my heart.
9:20 PM
Afternoon went library with jiayi, borrowed 3 books on cooking.Italian cooking, French cooking & Herbs & Spices.
Had quite a good time with jiayi, good catching up(:
I'm so damn fucking bored now.
Alrights, tuesday gonna have the 'no-government' kitchen to do up a buffet.
Please pray hard, they don't sarbo me to be executive chef, I don't want to be one now.
Because, I know I'm not there yet. I'll end up screwing up everything.
Fucking moody too.
Last time, I chat with him everyday, subsequencely, I adapt to chatting with him almost everyday, but not everyday.
Since he went in army, I made myself to adapt to chatting with him only on weekends.
Then now? He don't seems to be out this weekend!
Best part, yes, I'm quite angry with him.
I msged him, but there was no reply.
Why can't he simply tell me that he is in camp, or whatsoever.
Why must he play with me MIA?
I cannot adapt to not having him around for life.
What if this pursue? Then like we will no longer be chatting.
Friendship also goes down the drain?
It's gonna be a nightmare.
I wonder, is there such things that happened. A girl wait for the guy. Then she said that he will be the only one for her. Then she wait and wait, he doesn't return his feeling. Then this girl stays single for life and never gets attached, until the day she dies, she's still single. Please, let me know if you know got such person, I would like to know this person.
12:09 AM
I've locked up my blog. Because, somehow there's a linkage to my blog for my school people. I don't want them to read, so I locked it up.I think clarence didn't get to book out this weekend. He isn't online, then I message him, he never reply. :'( What happened to him?
What happened?!