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Friday, March 27, 2009, 11:43 PM
BACK TO BLOG AGAIN!!!After, 3 months. I'm finally coming to an end.
In 2 days time, I'll be done with.
:D
And mon will be my exam.
I'll go in with all the confidence I have.
And I believe I do the dishes with heart, it'll be a good one.
=D
Sunday, March 22, 2009, 10:27 PM
Just when I was on the way back home, lots of thoughts running around in my mind.I kept thinking how stressed up am I with these days. How pissed off I got with things. Then suddenly, my soul asked me 1 question, that I still can't find and answer to it- 'shouldn't I be happy instead of being so stressed up? Since this is what I've all along wanted to do.'
I can't defense myself with any other words. In fact, I should stop grumbling on how tired I am, how sian is it to do those work. Ultimately, those would only bring me down. And since I liked this career so much, I should move on, work things out willingly & stop grumbling.
Alright. Pamela Lim, you've got to move forward. Work those requirements out. And that is what would bring me to where I wish to be at. :D
Saturday, March 21, 2009, 6:41 PM
Simone.why never reply my sms? Really angry ah?
Sorry.
Friday, March 20, 2009, 10:45 PM
I'm having very mixed feeling now!!!It's like I'm stress, due to exams.
I'm feeling angry, because of some childish people. Kinda fustrated.
I'm feeling guilty, i made a mess out of it.
But I just kan bu shun yan.
FUCK IT.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009, 11:58 PM
So, what is it that I like so far about harbourfront?Say, the kitchen 1st.
- the kitchen is big. No more rubbing backside.
- there's more than enough of chiller and freezer.
- it's a KITCHEN *RC isn't*
- everything's so organised.
- so clean.
- not as hot.
Alrights, now, the people.
- kind and caring.
- fun loving. -RC yes, but to certain extent.
- you do something wrong, they tell you straight. they don't talk behind your back. *omg, you should see RC, backstabbers everywhere.*
- great teachers.
- motivated to work.
Now, you see the difference?
And yes, I'm happier currently.
I'm glad to hear chefs comparing me and rhica, and saying that I'm stronger in some sense. Because rhica is too soft. But for me, I did not jump for joy though. Because I know 一山有比一山高. There'll always be someone who will be stronger than me.
So, I'll not compare myself with others, to work forward, the only competitor I have, is myself.
我不会跟别人比，对手只有一位，那就是我。赢了自己，才是真真的胜利了。 我会加油的！加油！加油！加油！
11:40 AM
Back to clear a little of those webbies I've gotten over the past 1 week.And I'm back here blogging, because I know it's irrating when friends ain't updating their blog. HAHA! *hint hint* to some.
Anyway, it's been a busy period for me, after I transfer to harbourfront. Getting to learn more than just Coffee Club. Which includes the chefs teaching me, what kind of plates can use for what items. And different ways of cooking, and presenting of food.
For instance, sherpherd's pie, presenting in an unusual form. See, that's the difference between harbourfront and raffles city. What I could say is, the chefs there are really nice:)
And of course, due to the reason of how much I enjoy working at harbourfront outlet, I became a happier person. Bid goodbye to those fucking emotions. Became even more passionate about cooking, being more confidence, getting my brain running of unusual creations of food. Though ideas may be daggling ding dong up and down, left and right. But doesn't matter, experience will help.
Oh my, this is soooo unusual, of me being so opptimistic.
Owell, this should be good. At least I concentrate on my work, and I'm motivated.
Thank you so much, for offering your help and listening to troubles that I'm facing with my exams. Thanks for those advices you gave, on what I should research on next. Thanks a million. You made me feel great too. I love it, when I see those 'haha' and 'lol' you typed when you chat with me. At least I know, you're laughing, and not emoing.
Sunday, March 8, 2009, 10:12 PM
I've got nothing to do, having the urge to blog about something. Very random, yes I know.I may not be THAT old, as compared to some people who visits my blog. But how many of us, actually remembers characters like Sailormoon, Calvin n Hobbes? I know there's alot more to the list, but what came to my mind was this two.
How many kids these days actually knows how to play with that paper ball, which used to be on shelf for just 10 cents? I doubt there's many though. & how many kids these days actually does origami to keep themselves entertained?
There's a sudden gush of all this childhood memories coming to me.
Oh yea, remembered from Simone's pictures, Little Twin Stars. How many kids these days actually know them?!
Not speaking of Hello Kitty and Doreamon, 'cos they're still in trend though. Still many people crazy over them.
OHH OHH! And those toy balls you turn from the machines? 20cents for the small ones, and 50 cents for the big one? You know, You know?! Those rubber balls? They're my childhood favourite! I love turning and turning even I have a whole bucket of them. HAHA! Who plays with those rubber balls now anyway?
Ok, lots of crap already. I'm off to watch my 命中注定我爱你。
At least now, I know I'm trying to let go.
Saturday, March 7, 2009, 12:57 AM
Okay, I'm tired already. My eyes are teary already, but yet, I still came online and blog after a long day.Watched marley n me, I think still okay, not that bad.
WANYING!
Can go partyworld more often already! I've got nebo member, which means got 20% off total bill. Which also means, it'll be DAMN BLOODY CHEAP! =D
It's not over yet. I know. Because you still consistantly appearing; appearing in my mind. I thought it's all over already. Agony ended. But somehow, my feelings proved me wrong. Why I just ain't like any other girls, getting the guy they want? wtf. I don't know. I'm putting myself into pain. fuck. Things seems to be getting, fucking, yes, fucking painful for me.
Thursday, March 5, 2009, 4:33 PM
Since I am back home early today, and having lots of thought in mind now, shall blog.Who should I take order from, who should I learn from?
I think after I've been to a few working places, understanding the dog eat dog working world, there's something I see similarity in. Many places, have both young and elder working adults. Hence, speaking of experience, the younger ones definately at the losing end. However, not forgetting, the younger ones do learn through professional teaching.
Many times, the younger ones are taking the lead already, since they would get higher positions because of their qualifications. For instance, at winner. Nancy is an example. She's the elder one, but yet, of no high position. And always ordering people, and 'physco-ing' the younger ones' mind. Then when people who are younger than her, gives order to new staffs, she gets upset because she no longer can get people to do her job. And whatever the younger ones tell her something she did wrongly, she's unhappy with it, having the mindset that, she had been with the company for so long that she knows everything inside out.
But what century are we in now, 21st century already! There's a need for change. We cannot stick to everything just like how it is.
See, I'm in harbourfront only for four days, and I've seen quite alot for these few days. Let me just introduce the guy I was talking about in previous post. Uncle Heng, a very naggy old man. And the other younger ones, are my sous chef. Uncle Heng is the leading cook, btw. Lower position.
Uncle Heng have ways of doing things of his own. He refuse to listen and follow how the younger ones taught him. He always challenge them by using words like - you don't believe, you try lor. So the younger ones would always give in as respect, and just nod their head, telling him we believe and there isn't a need to try. There is no doubt of his experience throughout the years. Isn't it just the same as myths and scientifically proves. I would rather follow the scientifically proves.
It's ironical, the younger ones would have to respect the elderly, but yet the younger ones are of higher positions. They were jokingly saying just now, Uncle Heng not around, I don't want go eat. In fact, since starting, I don't like to go out, I feel lazy. But everytime I work 7am with him, then go lunch together lor. But I don't like to go lunch with him. He seriously nags alot alot alot. Abit until I cannot take it.
Uncle Heng would be able to link something to something. Link A to Z. See my point now. He'll tell me everything about human nature, the human cycle etc etcc. Telling me about after life, my parents may end up together again, and things like that.
For those who doesn't know. I ain't a person who believe in after life, human cycle and things like that, because it's human nature, you wouldn't know what happens after you die. And I that sort of person, who wishes to die and then come back and tell you what's the process of death. Get my point? No one knows what happens after death, how would you know how the following generations of your family would be like in the future.
Oh please, the world is forever turning. Yes, some of the things he mentioned is correct and agreeable. But mostly, I don't believe in. It's all one ear in, one ear out. Because I think it's all crap.
Spare me man. I think he's one of a kind. Who grabs hold onto newbie and process their mind like his. But sorry, I've yet to be processed.
Being a girl, is already at a losing end, since girls are generally weaking than guys in emotions and physical.
Rhica cried at work today. Just because Chef Raymond and leading cook, ah fai make fun of her. They said in chinese, 'clever can already, don't act clever.' Then she angry, walked out of kitchen, as usual go toilet cry.
Seriously, I think she too weak already lor. She said they always make fun of her, then she buay tahan. Already say le mar, it's just for laughter. Why she take it to heart lehs, so angry for what. If being a little more forgiving, and don't take things to heart, can make everyone's day, why not? Working only mar, who's not out for a living.
I may look like those who take things to heart very easily, because I always like answer them in a very serious tone. But I'm not those sort lar, I'm as playful(for those who know, you know it very well). I've learn to take things easy. If seriously, I'm at fault, I would apologise. All people want to hear is 'sorry' right? If I'm not at fault, I wouldn't apologise, I wouldn't cry for being taken as a scapegoat.
Yes, I'm contradicting myself from my post last time, where I broke down. How long I breakdown once? Very seldom.
Don't be a weak. Being weak wouldn't bring you anywhere. So ladies! No matter which area of work are you in, don't be a weak, you'll only get bullied. People shoot you, shoot back. Don't run away by not talking to them.
Quite a long post today hor.
Anw, I got GPA3.47 for my previous term. Very glad that I actually maintained, the very first one, GPA3.50. At least I'm still somewhere near. Though I may not be as good in my practical as my other classmates, but no point practical good, then academic no good. I'm maintaining my academic, and making my way up in practical. I will work harder. I want to show to people who look down on me.
Fuck it, people who look down on me, and thinks that I'll never make it big. I'll prove you wrong.
Hoho! I found back my confidence already. Which seriously I lost them at cat2 CC.
Cheers Baby! :D
Tuesday, March 3, 2009, 8:35 PM
For those who doesn't know.I've been transferred to harbourfront outlet already.
Which also means, no more nothing to learn, there's more to learn within the last month. No more nonsense from the demanding outlet manager at raffles city, no more of rotting badly in the kitchen that doesn't feels like the kitchen. oh, btw, at harbourfront, also rot. HAHA!
The chefs there are pretty good though. They're nice. Got 1 leading cook there, uncle heng. Tell you, he classic ah! POWER AH! Omg, he can nag at me, from 7am to 3 pm. Non-stop! But I can tahan lar, used to it already. Because other people also nag.
Really, harbourfront, better than raffles city. The kitchen there is SOOOOOO BIG! And at least, there's the heat where kitchen is suppose to have. O.O!!!
I feel so drifted apart from my friends. Seriously. I don't have the time for meet ups. Then sometime I sms, no reply. Then when talk, also like no topic to talk, chat cold cold de. I don't wish for things to happen like this lehs. I'm sorry if I don't have time to accomodate. But seriously, I'm enjoying what I'm doing now. I'll leave some time for catch up, once I'm done with the last 1 month. Let me learn as much things as possible during this month. Let me absorb as much as possible. I'm putting my heart into it now.
Sunday, March 1, 2009, 8:57 PM
Back to blogging!For the past few days, had been rather moody. And I can't control myself for having hard feelings on what people say to me. It seems like my soul left my body, leaving my body with those angsty feelings. But tell you all something. I'm damn happy now.
Because yesterday I was told that I'm being transferred to Harbourfront outlet. Yes, though far, but I still can accept the fact. I believe in more learning oppotunities there. Hope I wouldn't be disappointed though.
Finally I'm away from that sucky place.
No more fish n chips at clark quay, when it was suspose to be because it's at my convenience. Nevermind already. Good thing that I wasn't pining high hopes on that outing.
Friends will do. There isn't a need to go any further. Since I know friends and partners will be different. I can't understand what's on your mind. So could you can't stand my unreasonable nonsense. Now that I understand, I just ain't ready to commit, and you're not the one I wish to commit with. Now that that's the case, I'm setting myself free, and letting you breathe.