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Friday, May 28, 2010, 2:38 AM
Tust, Confidence, Faith
How would you people feel like when people's trust, faith, confidence in you, overflows?Seriously at the rate it's going, I rather no one trust me, have that much of confidence in me, like see-rai-ous-ly. I'm a silly girl. I don't know how strong am I, till I need people to tell me so. I never knew I was that good, that someone would actually wants me to stay with him, and he wants me to be his main support for maintaining standard. Why does he trust me so much? When I've not worked with him before. I asked, he said through his observation on me, and his sixth sense. Am I that good?
I've never wanted to be the best of the best, neither even the best. All I ever thought of, was to learn, to work and make a career out of it.
Some others told me, I deserve a better place than here. I should go look for a job when possible and not stay. But due to the facts that I would to be considering, I can't stop working. I'm not financially stable. And the fact that I'm inexperience to start of with a cook2 in other hotels.
Do understand that I should take every comments with a pinch of salt, and I need to take things easy and think properly since I've still got a month to go. Nobody understands me, I plan my future ahead. Before I end a phase, I have to have my next phase ready for me. I don't have much time to waste-though I don't know where I'm rushing to.
I believe he can change and make things turn-around. I ever thought of staying and making a difference. But I didn't have the experience to carry out. Now I've got someone with experience, who can make a difference, and me, I'm able to support and influence the attitude of people. Should we go ahead with it?
3 months, would he leave me alone behind? I'm really afraid. Would there be someone who picks me up along the way and bring me to a better world? I don't know.
Can God tell me, am I that good that people wants me, or it's just physco? Please answer my prayers.
I really think until I want to cry already. So badly. I know I should stop rushing myself, I still have time. If I were to let loose of myself, I will never come to a conclusion after I graduate.
Can this guy be trusted?
:'(