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Saturday, May 22, 2010, 12:52 AM
I was in that bad a condition, that i felt like messaging you, asking if I can wait for you to travel together, I don't wanna be left alone, because I know how i can fuck myself till i can go crazy. Till the end, I didn't. You seems happy today, I don't wanna dumpen your spirit.I did ask melody, she and cheryl wanted to wait. Then again, they had wonderful gp dinner, I don't want my black face to spoil their mood.
In the end, I came home alone, bought mac, I just felt like eating.
I hope there's someone who can hold my hands and walk me through such things. Because, even myself, I'm tired of how I'm torturing myself mentally. I think I'm mentally sick, perhaps.
On a happier note, I got programmes lined up for me the next week. Thurs, likely to have 'farewell' dinner for danny. He's last day. Then Fri prolly meeting up with jiayi and co, maybe for ice cream or so. Sat meeting AiAi saliza. Like finally, I suppose I haven't met her for about 3 years? it was ever since collection of Os results till date. Then Sun would be family dinner.
I messaged him on facebook. But there isn't seems to be a reply. I apologised for being bo chup when he actually greeted me when I was upstairs. I really wasn't on purpose today. It's just that my mood was so foul today. I'm sorry, really sorry.