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Sunday, January 10, 2010, 11:06 PM
Where are you, my friend?
Sigh. I'm still getting emotional as and when.It seems to be like I've lost a friend, a pair of listening ears. Someone who had been out there for me, for years, seems to have vanished into thin air after my confession. Confession seems to be a high price to pay huh, paying a friendship for it.
That day at work, something happened again. I knew I almost broke down, because I was really harsh on myself for that silly mistake. I knew I need someone to talked to, he was the first person I could have thought of. I texted him, waiting for a reply that could at least turned into a little comfort for me, to keep me moving. It was all disappointment again.
Even these days, I see him online, I appear online, he doesn't chat with me anymore. Not even when it's late night at 2am, when he'll usually be less busy. :(
I really miss those late night long chats. I miss pouring all my emotions on him. He's always there when I face problems- except BGR. But that day, I just needed to talk to him. Why it seems so tough. I wasn't trying to be sticky to him. I just want a close friend I can contact as and when. Wether I'm in trouble or not, he'll be there. I'm trying to look at him as such a friend.
But it seems as though I lost such a friend. When it comes to him, I feel empty. Real empty.
Where have my friend gone to? I miss him so much. :'(
Now, I know, I'm still not okay at all. He's still on my mind, all I wanted.