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Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 7:39 PM
First day of official working. Quite okay, just that I'm still slow. There's alot more to improve.Anyway, alot of thinking during the bus journey back. Half journey thinking, the after half, I fell asleep.
If I could rewrite the whole story.
I would have turned back the time to 2004.
Go back to the staircase, and just walked pass.
I shouldn't have trusted you so much;
I told you too much;
I relied on you too much.
Too much, that I cannot live without you.
You made me dependent on you.
My life had been rough through those years.
Many things happened, a happening one.
You were there, listening, giving advice.
I encoded those message, and decoded.
Putting everything into actions.
Equals to I've completely placed my trust on you.
On the other hand, I'm grateful that you were there.
Leading me to the bright end of those tunnels.
Meetings wasn't as frequent.
I doesn't know how to classify our friendship.
Is it just a Hi-Bye Friend, is it just normal friends, is it best friends?
Probably to him, it's a normal friendship.
To me, it's a special friendship.
Never talked about friendship between us.
Only relationship of his.
How much is the trust between the two of us?
He knows too much of me.
I know too little of him.
What is this?
Fate?
Destiny?
It was all not planned.
But it just happened somehow.
I said bloody much times saying that I would give up.
So where's the GIVE UP now?
I find myself thinking of him as and when in the day.
The things he said to me.
So what's next?
*Wo ren ming le. Ai Qing fang mian, wo ren ming. Yi qie rang yue lao lai jue ding le. Wo zhuo bu liao zu.*