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Sunday, October 19, 2008, 1:58 AM
Now I'm at home, and i just feel like blogging. I may get emo or high, depending on what's on my mind. So, if you're not interested, then skip this post.I don't know why, lately I had been going onto a emotional rollercoaster. And I really mean it. It's like, I get annoyed and irritated over small matters, and it really does pissed me off. Also, out of no reason, I can feel really low. And it seems like lately, nothing seems to cheer me up. I feel troubled, but no idea about what. I wish to go out, but i have no companion. Even if I'm able to find one, there's isn't common topic between us. Sigh.
God, please tell me what's wrong. I seems to have lost my way home, and I ain't equipped with the sense of direction. I know, there's no one who can bring me back, they can only be there with me. I've got to find the way home myself, alone. Flashing back, my route seemed dark, like a tunnel, but yet with little torch.
I really feel lost now. And I don't know if I am.
And since I'm feeling this way lately, I had a dream this morning(saturday). Let me just share.
Here's my dream:
I was walking on the pavement with a handbag, at a private housing estate. Then out of the sudden, I wasn't feeling comfortable with my bra, so i adjusted it, then my bra strap snapped, and it wasn't a strapless bra, so I can't do without the strap. Then just nice when i was looking awkard holding my bra, a uncle came pass. He said, come to my house, I'll give u some clothes. Alrights, when I went with him, his house was big. Then I met his daughter, who is quite big size(like me), his grand-daughter, and his wife. His wife speaks teochew(which i understand but cnt really speak). Then he went into the kitchen to prepare food with his wife. His daughter came to me, passed me a bra, pink, silky bra. It looks big to me at 1st, but it fitted me just nicely, and it's so comfortable. I went to the toilet to change, and their toilet is so big. A bathing area(raised up platform), the toiletbowl, the sink, that's it. Then I went into a bedroom. It's so big and nice. A very countryside feeling to me. Well furnished, and the lighting is warm and comfy. I was then made to stay for a meal. Then I woke up already.
I wonder what does this dream means. It seems like I've met a beneficial when I'm in trouble. And this person is really nice and kind. If someone ever can solve this for me, please tell me.
And my blog is becoming clarence aw. He is no longer there to listen to my crap shit. So now whenever I need someone to talk to or whatsoever, I'll come to my blog. Not that I don't want find people to talk to(esp my pillars), but then, I just don't wish to be grumbling to you guys. At least, I blog it, you all can choose to listen to my story or not.
Sorry readers, that i'll be bringing you guys on an emotional rollercoaster.
I hope that my dream is actually reflecting on my current stituation now. Hoping that there will be someone good out there to pick me out of the diificulties I'm facing.